I really don't know why i'm doing this again, maybe its just because i need to find an avenue to put my thoughts. I'm not sure if i want to look back at some of the posts. Memories can be beautiful but they can be painful too. I choose to be happy though, looking back at the beautiful things. The blessings i have is immense, and i feel guilty to even let out a sign of complain. God has been good to me, i would never deny that.
Sometimes, it's frustrating to know that human beings are so judgemental. Anything that makes an interesting topic or that justify and satisfy one's lifestyle and values or morals. Many a times we think that its just a passing comment, its just a hear say. However, its a package deal. Judgement is actual and implied. Judgement is more than words or opinions, it's a reaction, an expression. It's implied. It's there. As much as i hate it, it's part of me as well, it's part of the way i see and react to things. Sometimes i pinch myself, why did i say that, or do that.
Sometimes it's inevitable. Why does it seem that humans find satisfaction in putting someone down? One thing i truly believe in, that the ultimate force of nature is in the power of the word. The impact of speech.
I always remember learning in church that; "your words frame your world". that your words is so powerful that it can change your life, change the circumstances and the expectations. I want my words to not just change my life but the life of others.
If God gave us the power of choice, i hope we can choose to speak good, to lift people up, to give compliments when due. The effort to speak of good and bad is similar, but we choose the bad sometimes because we are attracted to a certain kind of reaction. It is natural that speaking ill of someone justifies how we feel about ourselves, it give us a temporary satisfaction about ourselves. Is it worthwhile though? Compromising someone else's life with your words for a little kick of self-justification.
